ended up crying..
Even though you guys all prayed for me
my own abilities were just lacking
things it didn’t end problem-free…
They even had to stop the music because of me, that’s the worst ↓
I’m sorry to the other members, the teacher, and staff members, and to everyone ~ ↓
I really do like singing. But I’m so bad at it
If I wasn’t putting enough effort in, then yeah I can understand that
but today, I just couldn’t sing well at all
and that was so terribly frustrating, irritating, and just painful to me
I’m so jealous of the other members who can sing well
Of course the other members put a lot of effort in as well
It is because they give it 100% every day that they can sing so well
But I just feel like I’m the only one who can’t sing
And it just instantly kills my confidence and my voice
Crying didn’t solve any problems for me either, it just caused further trouble for everyone else
I’m so embarrassed
But I have to get back up!
I’ll keep on going ☆☆
I don’t need to just cry all the time!
I can’t change the fact that my singing is poor,
and I can’t go back to the old days,
and I can’t do anything about what happened to day…
But from tomorrow on..
from right now!
I’ll continue to face forward and give it my all
I’m not writing this in the hopes to get consolation from all you guys!
I just want to share my new-found commitment to you all