{"id":1655,"date":"2010-03-12T11:02:34","date_gmt":"2010-03-12T19:02:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/hyakupa.net\/wordpress\/?p=1655"},"modified":"2010-03-12T11:02:34","modified_gmt":"2010-03-12T19:02:34","slug":"ill-do-my-best","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/nantonaku.mittsi.net\/?p=1655","title":{"rendered":"I'll do my best"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\nFor today’s fix I…<\/p>\n

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ended up crying..<\/p>\n

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Even though you guys all prayed for me
\nmy own abilities were just lacking
\nthings it didn’t end problem-free…<\/p>\n

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Sorry (;_;)<\/p>\n

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They even had to stop the music because of me, that’s the worst \u2193<\/p>\n

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I’m sorry to the other members, the teacher, and staff members, and to everyone ~ \u2193<\/p>\n

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I really do like singing. But I’m so bad at it<\/p>\n

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If I wasn’t putting enough effort in, then yeah I can understand that
\nbut today, I just couldn’t sing well at all
\nand that was so terribly frustrating, irritating, and just painful to me
\nI’m so jealous of the other members who can sing well
\nOf course the other members put a lot of effort in as well
\nIt is because they give it 100% every day that they can sing so well
\nBut I just feel like I’m the only one who can’t sing
\nAnd it just instantly kills my confidence and my voice
\nCrying didn’t solve any problems for me either, it just caused further trouble for everyone else
\nI’m so embarrassed<\/p>\n

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But I have to get back up!<\/p>\n

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I’ve decided!<\/p>\n

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I’ll keep on going \u2606\u2606<\/p>\n

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I don’t need to just cry all the time!<\/p>\n

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I can’t change the fact that my singing is poor,
\nand I can’t go back to the old days,
\nand I can’t do anything about what happened to day…<\/p>\n

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But from tomorrow on..
\nfrom right now!<\/p>\n

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I’ll continue to face forward and give it my all<\/p>\n

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I’m not writing this in the hopes to get consolation from all you guys!
\nI just want to share my new-found commitment to you all<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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