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Last night, after coming home, I looked over the clips from the day before yesterday’s Yamaguchi performance<\/p>\n
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It’s really a delightful…such a delightful atmosphere.<\/p>\n
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This clips, I’ll cherish them![\"\u30ea\u30dc\u30f3\"](\"wp-content\/themes\/smilies\/169.gif\")
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And… it’s personal but…<\/p>\n
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The other day, my grandma passed away.<\/p>\n
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Already some time has passed since Grandma-chan had gone to heaven but,
\nhonestly, I still can’t believe it…<\/p>\n
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This kind of private talk, I know writing on this blog won’t do anything but…<\/p>\n
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Just, doing this, writing on my blog, my feelings, kinda, calm down…I think.<\/p>\n
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And, still I want Grandma-chan to look at my blog from heaven… thinking htat, I’m writing.<\/p>\n
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When I heard that Grandma-chan passed away, all my memories with Grandma-chan came to mind, and I couldn’t stop tearing.<\/p>\n
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Grandma-chan,
\nshe lived next to my house in Yamaguchi so
\nsince I was young, she’d always come over to play with me.<\/p>\n
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I slept over a lot too.<\/p>\n
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I’d walk together with Grandma-chan in nearby Tokiwa Park
\nI’d get tired playing around so, Grandma-chan on the way back would always carry me on her back as I slept.<\/p>\n
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I think I was heavy but she always did that for me.<\/p>\n
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Since I’ve become part of Morning Musume\u3002
\nI couldn’t really see her<\/p>\n
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But she’d watch me on TV it seems,
\nand when I occasionally went home I’d go see Grandma-chan<\/p>\n
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I’d say, “It’s been a while huh,”<\/p>\n
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and Grandma-chan would go,<\/p>\n
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“On this end I’d see you on TV so it doesn’t feel like it’s been that long, I’m always looking forward to it,”<\/p>\n
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she’d say that to me<\/p>\n
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those words really made me happy.<\/p>\n
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I know Grandma-chan was slowly getting weaker
\nwhen it came to the bathroom and stuff, she wasn’t being as thorough cleaning it,
\nBig sis-chan and I would clean the bathroom for Grandma-chan too.<\/p>\n
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When Grandma-chan was hospitalized
\nI only went to see her once but<\/p>\n
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she said, “I want to be discharged soon,”<\/p>\n
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saying that
\nher health might have been rough but she talked with me a lot.<\/p>\n
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Not being able to see Grandma-chan that much,
\neven though we played a lot when I was little
\nsince I became in adult, I haven’t been able to do this and that with Grandma-chan at all so<\/p>\n
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when I graduate
\nI’ll go back home to see Grandma-chan
\nI’l talk a lot with Grandma-chan<\/p>\n
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even though I thought that, why did the timing happen like this?<\/p>\n
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Grandma-chan, I wanted you to keep trying just a little bit more…
\nBut, that’s Sayumi being selfish huh…<\/p>\n
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Grandma-chan, thank you for everything up to now.
\neven though I’m indebted to you for playing with me lots and lots
\nI’m sorry I never got to say thank you directly and properly…
\nI’m sorry I couldn’t come home to see you much even though I thought being alone at home all the time was lonely.
\nI’m sorry that even though to the very end I wanted to see you I couldn’t even do that.<\/p>\n
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Saying good bye to Grandma-chan is really sad and
\nI couldn’t go Grandma-chan’s funeral either but
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\nI feel like looking forward, I need to do my best and live as my grandma’s grandchild\uff01<\/p>\n
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I feel like Grandma-chan was watching the day before yesterday’s Yamaguchi Triumphant Return Live from heaven too.<\/p>\n
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Grandpa-chan who passed away last year too…<\/p>\n
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For sure from heaven
\nI feel they’d be overjoyed,
\n“Sayu-chan’s fans are amazing huh\uff01\uff01 I’m glad\uff01\uff01”<\/p>\n
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I feel like
\nthey’re always watching over me.<\/p>\n
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Watch over me from heaven for 11.26’s Yokohama Arena graduation concert too kay.<\/p>\n
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I love you\uff01\uff01<\/p>\n
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