A Morning Musume。’14 Hawaii 2014 Report

Part 2: The Pre-days

I know I know, you stuck around through that whole disclaimer and here I am talking about before Momusu is even here. Just give me a sec here, because I’m going to say the thing you guys probably already know about it, just to help set the mood.

That day when the Sayu grad announcement happened, I felt my heart break a little. We all knew it was coming, and it is for the better you know, Sayu knows how to go out with a bang; how to be the best Idol she can and that’s to go out on a high note and give it all you can while you can. At the same time, it’s still something you don’t want to be said, it’s almost the utmost example of contradiction (says the guy who calls himself Invisible and is talking to you very visibly =P).

So feeling my heart crack with the news, my immediate prayer was for one last Hawaii tour. And you might think to yourself, “Why do you care about that?” seeing the disclaimer that I am not an FC member or in Japan, but I wanted to know that for at least one more time Sayu could experience Hawaii as an Idol. And when the news that they were getting a Hawaii tour was announced, that fragment of my heart that was chipping from the news of her graduation lit ablaze, wanting to go out in a blaze, happy that one last Hawaii gets to happen.

Now I am not saying that is the only reason. Of course, the members coming to Hawaii, coming here, means they would be almost literally in my backyard. My hometown, near the world that I have to be in every day, just knowing they are near feels me with a kind of energy I feel like the Japan fans get almost every day. And for one week, give or take a couple of days I suppose, I get that feeling in my body, that extra rush of adrenaline, that hope and dream that I could do more and be more than just that guy on the internet that gushes over how much I love them.

And so, in that announcement, I also felt that maybe I could do something, make a difference in some way. I wanted to try to make it better. Now again I have to make it clear I’m human, there is a part of me that wanted that recognition too, that tiny sliver that everyone probably has in their heart and mind that thinks, “Hey I’ll do this amazing thing and then they’ll remember me at least a little!” but that’s a natural thought. And I don’t ever want to feel like I earned it or deserved it or anything, what I mean is I am not special just because I’m in Hawaii, or that I’m “Invis” or anything like that, heaven’s no. I have hope, the same hope everyone has for the best, but most of the time I know better than to let hope blind you from natural, proper expectations, or the logic to know anything I want to do may not work out the way I wanted it to.

Luckily for me, I’m not the only person who wanted to do something. I had friends here, who wanted to do things with me. Our strength together helped us have the courage to try to do things we knew could do nothing in the end, but together we could at least feel we worked together to try to do something magical. We wanted to show the Hawaii spirit so we prepared to do so the best we could.