A Morning Musume。’14 Hawaii 2014 Report

Part 6: Conclusions

So, I suppose if you made it this far you must be thinking to yourself, “Wait that’s it? That’s nothing!” and to that I reply, “Yup!” Hawaii is both a blessing and a curse in itself. A couple months down the line, the Alo-hello’s and the FC tour DVDs will be coming out and you will probably get to see all those wonderful things and be as happy as I am that Momusu got one last Hawaii tour, but when they’re here this is what we get. And still, it is one of the most excited times I’ve ever had on the island. The pure thrill knowing someone nearby Idols are doing something fun is had to compare. At the same time I’ve felt the same kind of counter-thrill, the depression over the fact that I’ve been stuck at work instead being out there, going to see if fate would lead me to them.

It’s a special kind of feeling perhaps, one I hope that all the people in New York get to feel at least a little come October. But it comes with that little tiny asterisk disclaimer in the writing. I have very high hopes every time someone comes here, but I have very low expectations. Hawaii is indeed a magical place, you can come here and enjoy the wonders of the Aloha spirit, and the wonderful culture/atmosphere. You can always hope for the best, think maybe it will be the one, but you can’t honestly be too discouraged when it doesn’t turn out that way. Life isn’t a fairy tale or anything too magical, but sometimes it likes to give you little blessings.

This may have been Morning Musume’s Michishige Sayumi’s last FC Hawaii Tour, possibly the last time ever that Sayu may come to Hawaii. I may not have been able to do anything to make it better for her, but I tried. And I’ll always be happy to know that she’s been here; every Genki PikaPika, every Lalala no Pipipi, and every Shanimuni Paradise reminds me that wonderful Idols have been here. I may not have another chance to help her enjoy Hawaii more, but she enjoyed it, so I’m glad. I’m depressed I couldn’t make it even better, but glad it was good. And that is the kind of world we live in here, good and bad, balanced and unbalanced. And I don’t know if we’ll have it any other way.

I thank you for reading this to the end. I began writing this feeling kind of hollowed out by the experience, just another of Sayu’s Lasts that we all have to check off. But as I wrote I began to question if anyone would really read this. A long somewhat fruitless article maybe? Or perhaps you understand these feelings? I can’t tell how anyone would react to it. But I thank you if you took the time to read it.

So what do you think? Have you ever felt that kind of good/bad “rubberbanding” feeling to your Idol experience? Do you feel guilty for some of the thing you do? Or perhaps feel you could do more after the fact? Maybe you have an experience you’d like to share too? The comments are always open, but please be kind to everyone.